2018 is really that year for me. It was very dramatic, devastating, fun, lovely and heartbreaking. Trust me, I love it, I feel like I've grown so much, through the ups and downs, I'm growing and bettering myself every moment this year.
1. Solo travelling to Cambodia
I've done a lot of crazy things this year and I love challenging myself, stepping out of my comfort zone, doing something really different and travelling alone for 2 weeks was so far the best and craziest thing I did for myself. Idk how but I started to believe horoscopes more. I'm a Sagittarius, and freedom is my priority, always. It makes me feel like me, doing things I want, seeing places I've never seen before, trying new things. I love myself even more when I was travelling alone. No decisions have to be made, only me-time, only taking time to heal and grow. It changes my perspective and of vision. I get questioned a lot about travelling alone and some might admire, some might not get impressed, but I'm doing it for myself.
Performing might be one of my favourites in high school and I never thought of going back on stage again after I graduated. And miracles happened, I passed the audition to be one of the actors for the show. You obviously have no idea how happy I am and how much this bunch of people mean to me. We've been practicing and doing everything together for around 3 months straight. I love how our trust was built and the strong connections between us. I didn't really keep in touch with all of them but I truly love how my university life was filled with these people and memories.
学戏剧的孩子都是善良的
A lot people was asking me if I'm a Christian now. First of all, I do not called myself as a Christian and that doesn't mean I do not believe in Jesus, it's just I don't really trust labels. In 2018 I tried to ditch all the labels and doing whatever that feels right to me. And here it goes, Christianity, what a beautiful gift from Jesus. It teaches me so much, I'm such a better person since I got closer to it and I truly believe that God has a plan, everything happened for a reason and I think it is fate that I met God.
This was my first time taking part at this huge competition happening in Malaysia for all interior design students. I'm so thankful and appreciate for everyone involved and truly grateful for a 2nd runner up prize, from nothing to something, hard works paid off. It proved all the people who thinks I'm weird wrong and it motivates me to design more, to be more creative and jump out of the box.
This is my third concert and it's the best one so far. I kinda went to the concert alone because I broke up with my ex. I felt so anxious at first because I can do everything alone but going to a concert alone sounds like a really big deal for me. I insist going and thank God everything went freaking well, their songs were all break up song which is so fucking relatable :')
Anyway I met my friends Maei and Grace!!!! (Thank God x2) and make some new friends during the concert. The vibes, the energy, the atmosphere, mainly PAUL JASON KLEIN. I got to listened to ILYSB live. One of my favourite nights.
It's one of my biggest changes in 2018. Thrifting or buying preloved's is not something very common in Malaysia compared to other countries. I used to shop at fast fashion retail stores so so much (regrets) but now I'm in the process of cutting out fast fashion. The reason why I started doing this is because the more I'm doing it the more I find my own style and help me to know myself better. Not only because it's more sustainable, but it's so much easier to express yourself and your unique spirits and things can be really cheap. I'm really glad that some of my friends (Hazel, Aiman etc) are doing this and I'm trying my best to influence people around me to start doing this. You might need to think again if you think you need something pricey to prove how "fashionable" you're.
PS: I highly recommend watching "The True Cost" (available on Netflix) which is all about fast fashions impact on the Earth and also the social justice aspect of it.
Yes, accomplishments can be small like getting an ear piercing and yes I'm very happy I did it. I woke up one day and think it's a great day to have a piercing. Imagine being this brave??? I'm so proud of myself.
8. Dying my hair blonde and keeping it long
Remember when blonde short hair was a thing???? I did it. A lot of you come to me and pointing fingers but seriously I love myself no matter how I look. if I keep my hair long and I'm doing it for myself, your opinions don't matter. It's 2019 I hope some people can grow up and learn how to shut the fuck up instead of making people feel bad for doing what they like.
9. Nude swimming in the ocean (Otres beach)
This was something funny. Marlon (my friend from France, we met in Cambodia) made me do it. It was illegal tho but I had fun, never thought my first nude swimming would happen like this haha.
10. Learnt how to roll weed
Bucketlist checked. I love doing illegal shit.
11. Started blogging which I've always wanted to
I love bragging about shits.
12. Finished a book (big accomplishment because I'm not a bookworm)
I finished Call Me By Your Name <3
13. Only bought a pair of sneaker (I bought 8 sneakers in 2017)
Buy less, buy better.
I got myself a pair of Reebok Daytona DMX (first reebok), always wanted a DAD sneaker because I'm mainstream and I finally got one that I really love (was considering YEEZY 500 but meh Yeezy's dead).
14. Invest my hobby in talking film photos
Wow it's an expensive hobby I would say, but goddamn it when the photos were developed, it feels amazing.
15. Satisfied with my hard work and improvements throughout the semesters
Ok I rarely talk about my assignment or shit like that because I always feel dumb at some point. This course is way harder than I thought. Each day I'm trying to improve and I can finally see the outcome of my hard works. It just feels great when your works were being appreciated and things like that motivates me so much. I'm very thankful for most of my lecturers and my classmates for being so helpful. 2019 we gotta try harder.
16. Making new friends
Yeah I love talking to strangers and listening to their stories, sometimes I even feel more comfortable being around strangers. I make some new friends (local and oversea) and I love each and everyone of them. I love how people are being kind to each other and giving love. Fun fact I actually have social anxiety which none of my friends believe me but nvm.
17. Veganism
I'm trying to be more a vegan since July. Always wanted to do it but I was forced to start it because I had shingles and I had to be vegan for 3 damn weeks. Since then I tried to eat at least one plant-based meal per day and I feel good. I strongly encourage people to try to be vegan, I mean you don't have to go all in but it's great if you try to kill lesser animals. Just in case you didn't know Beyonce and Jay-Z challenge you to go veganism in 2019.
I believe there are a lot more things which I missed out but I have to say 2018 was really beautiful. I got to be myself and trying every new things. Felt so much love, so much good energy, so much good will, so much growth. I'm thankful for all the breakups, all the lessons, all the accomplishments, and all the things that changed my vision. I learn a lot and appreciate all the real ones who made it through 2018 with me.
(I love all my friends but shoutout to Manaal and Hua Wei because we basically meet each other everyday in school and I love how our friendships become stronger. Thanks for the physically and mentally supports, can't imagine how university will looks like without you both.)
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